Day 2: When being single sucks...

Two posts in one night? What?

This challenge is actually pretty relevant to my life right now. I recently saw a video about a popular comedian who was talking about his reasons for not liking cell phones. In this video there is a portion that he talks about why people use cell phones, his reasoning is that people use it when they are lonely. They use it to feel connected to something, or someone.

This brings me to the question.

A moment when being single sucks...

For me its the moments when I'm not busy, when I have a chance to breathe and realize that I'm going to go back to my apartment and I'll have no one to share it with.

Surprisingly its not during the obvious times. You would think its when I'm watching a romantic comedy, or when I'm reading a historical romance or even when I'm helping one of my closest friends plan her wedding. No I don't think being single sucks during these moments, at least not for me.

Being single sucks when I continue to succeed in something and having someone seems unattainable because I feel men will be intimidated or when there is a prolonged moment of silence. These moments come unexpectedly, I'll be laughing, planning something or reading and then the moment comes.

I'll feel lonely, sometimes even unworthy. I let the moment take me, I shed tears if I have to and then I go back to whatever it is I was doing.

I can't believe I'm going to post this.

Oh well, this is supposed to be my therapy.

Adios, until my vintage thoughts clash with my modern mind,

Day 1: Why am I still single?

In an effort to start writing again and to save money on the many issues I'm sure I have, I have decided to enter this blogging challenge. Here goes nothing.

How do I respond to that question? It depends who is asking.

If it happens to be my grandmother (or any other female family member) I will most likely say I am to busy or selfish to share my life with anyone else.

It its a handsome man, I will most likely say something terribly sarcastic, because I have recently discovered that this is how I flirt.

But if I was being completely honest I would say...

The reason I'm single is because I have something I'm looking for, a high standard for love and what a relationship should look like. I simply cannot bring myself to settle for something that at the root is not that. I've tried to convince myself that love is a fairytale and that its for die-hard romantics but at the end of the day I know what I want.

So until I find someone I can be myself with, someone that shares my love for service, someone that wants to share who they are with me and will take care of me as if I was their most prized possession, someone who will allow me to be the leader I am and who in return will let me be their biggest cheerleader, until then, I will be single.

So when people ask me Why are you still single I will respond, I'm not ready for him yet.

Ciao world, until my vintage thoughts clash with my modern mind,